In August 2014 I woke up crying. Sam, my partner of 9 years was asleep next to me but woke when he heard my distress. On inquiring why I was upset I told him I had a nightmare that he was in love with another woman and was leaving. His response was not to put his arms around me and reassure me I was wrong but instead he said “I am”. It was a week after I had returned from a operation that had gone terribly wrong and I had found out that a beautiful friend of mine had terminal liver cancer. As you can imagine my world just fell apart.
The operation had left me unable to walk (temporarily), I weighed 18 stone (118kg), had spent all my capital supporting Sam through his sailing adventure, was responsible for my lovely son Joshua and I had worked 1 of the 3 years of my fixed term contract. This is the story of how I turned my life around, slowly and one day at a time. How I regained my confidence and financial security, how I learnt about the importance of loving me and caring for who I am and how I wished to live, how I coped with setbacks and trauma en route and the value I placed on the people I care about.
A huge part of this transition was my transformation. My discovery of the merits of cutting sugar out of my diet and introducing exercise. To achieve this though I had to change my mental state, I had to find what motivated me and appreciate that was who I was.